so, here i am... two years+ since my last post... weird.  I don't even know if anyone does xanga anymore, haha... well, since i last posted i have finished my first year of vet school... woohoo! 1/4 veterinarian :) Right now I am in California for the month of July, taking some marine mammal classes... those are limited in good old oklahoma obviously.  I just moved to a new house in Stillwater, and being out here in california makes me appreciate all over again how low the cost of living can be in oklahoma, haha.  I have a new puppy, Marley Kai... she is a miniature australian shepherd, LOVE HER. hmmm...  not much else to update on really, the Lord is teaching and reteaching me things daily, thank goodness He hasn't given up yet :)

till next time?...

Thanks to shannon I realized that I wasn't very clear about moving to stillwater.  I am still going to go to Stillwater even though I won't be attending vet school yet.  I am going to take some classes and work for a vet which will hopefully better my chances for next year... sorry about the confusion shan!

A hodge-podge of emotions... thats really the only way to explain where I am at right now...

excited because I can't believe this is the last day of my undergrad career, I am graduating from college in a week! 

worried because I don't know what the next step is... things are still up in the air, I am graduating for college and have no idea what I am doing...

anxious (maybe a little uptight) about hearing from OSU, which won't happen till June...

sad/disbelief that i will not be seeing my friends everyday... well, not that i saw them everyday here either, but knowing that they won't be around... its hard to grasp that the people who have helped make me who I am , are gone...   (side note:  because I know I didn't get to hangout with some of yall alot, you may think that the comment about making me who I am is extreme, or that it doesn't apply to you... don't sell yourself short, you might be surprised the impact all of you have had on me)

regret that I didn't spend more time soaking up every moment I could with the people around me, and regret that I didn't push myself harder so that I wouldn't be sitting in this anxious boat, and regret that I felt the need to be involved in so many things that I would only be able to keep up with them half-heartedly, rather than putting my all into the things I was passionate about...

grateful that I was blessed with four unforgetable years at OBU

It's hard to believe that this year is truly coming to an end...

Well, I head back to oklahoma soon... in like 4 days.  I love oklahoma an' all, but i really don't want to come back.  I love it here!  The hardest thing about working here has been being so close to the career I want with all my heart, and knowing that now is not the right timing, knowing I still have a year of school left when all I really want to do is stay.  But, that being said... I am really excited about my senior year.  I am pumped to see everyone again, and get back in the swing of things!  The fact that I have a house this year is mucho excitingo too! It will be a good year, I have to remember to focus on the positive... how does that song go... accentuate the postive, eliminate the negative... i don't know the rest, oh well see ya in oklahoma!